grace poured out

as many of you know, we were put into an interesting situation not too long ago with a major job change for my husband. This has lead to all sorts of upheavals, plans being changed, timelines tweaked and extended, stress and worry exponentially increased. Good times, all around. Now things are settling down, the paychecks should be rolling in seamlessly, all is righted, and better days are ahead.

One thing that has been my biggest concern, naturally, was money. We have a good sized house payment, 2 car payments, various other expenses, not to mention a recent need to spend lots of money on car repairs and put them ALL on the credit card...ouch! The good part is that before these events took place we were already cutting out excess spending and reconfiguring things in order to be wiser with our finances. As a result, we're in a better place than we might have been, we have savings that we can fall back on if needed until our income is finally back where it should be. I got an unexpected, but very needed, raise at work. Things have worked out to where we haven't lacked, we haven't bounced checks, no late bills, we've been able to pay entire amounts, even for an accidentally huge phone bill from last month. God has met our every need, even in times of doubt and worry.

I keep checking our bank accounts to make sure that things are going thru ok and see if we need to transfer money from savings to cover our expenses, but we haven't. I can't explain how we keep having what seems like more money than we ever have before. I'm sure my raise helps a lot, I know that we've cut our extra spending down to practically nothing, which makes a bigger impact than you might think! And thru it all, we're still able to tithe and give to people in the church. It just hit me today, looking to make sure that the house payment went thru and that we still had funds, God is SO GOOD. We're not just getting by, we're doing quite alright, in no trouble at all. He has been nothing but gracious, and it makes me ashamed of my attitude of late. I've been discontent, wondering why we're going thru this, when can we work on what we want to do, where we want to go. What's all this patience and character development crap anyways?

I think I'll work on fixing my attitude now, God seems to have things pretty well in hand.