endless? frustration

Since coming back to work last week from being on vacation for a week, there hasn't been a day that I didn't wish I wasn't working (was that clear?). It's partly because I just would really like to stay home and take care of the house and the kids we don't have yet, and partly because it's becoming glaringly obvious that no matter how things change at my job, they tend to stay the same. I can't really go into detail about it because it's long and drawn out and probably boring to most everyone, but no matter the re-organizations, the new hires, the promises to look into something, being sold to a new company (that actually happened while I was in Florida), things in the day-to-day operations of the office never seem to really change.

Some people may find that comforting, and in some situations, I could agree. But I'm currently seeing all the things I would like to change in order to make things more efficient and allow me to actually grow and feel more productive at my job, and that's what's not changing, which is the part that I don't like so much.

I always figured I could stick it out until we had kids and I can just go home. As of last week, that's not necessarily my stongest impulse anymore. So my attitude? It sucks. And what do I do? I dunno. Is there another job that I can find to pay me this much money? I'll probably have to start back where I did when I started here almost 7 years ago, which is significantly less than I make now. I've contemplated just finding a job at the local Caribou coffee, probably making even less money. But where does God want me? Good question. I have a feeling this is one of those darn character building opportunities, and to date, I'm probably failing miserably.