challenged

i think i'm now officially challenged....not mentally, tho I know some who would argue that.

Tim wrote recently on his blog about how his pastor is all big into dreaming big dreams and all that stuff, and for the first time, I didn't cringe.
I've been really turned off to things like that because of how I grew up. There's something to charismatic christianity (I know it's a generalization, but still) with the prosperity gospel and all that jazz that makes me think that it's all shady and selfish to do the things they talk about - believe for big cars and fancy things and big huge church campuses, even...

I'm still not really sure of what I think of Rick Warren, but I don't have anything against the man. He's done awesome things, his church seems amazing from what I've heard of it, and it's all very impressive, kind of obvious that at least a few people are listening to God there. So when he starts talking about dreaming big dreams....it's a little different than I'm used to.

I think there's something to it. But I also think that I've gotten myself to the point that I'm not really sure what big dreams I have to dream. I used to dream of going to Peru and living there. I used to dream of being used by God in big amazing ways...why did I let that go? I don't want to dream my dreams, but I don't want to stop God from planting dreams in my heart, either, squashing them before there's a chance to believe that something might happen.

Maybe I should start dreaming again....