Tuesday night I saw God work. It's obviously not the first time, nor the last. It seems trite to try and quantify how meaningful it was, tho it feels like I should try for some reason? Of course it was meaningful, it was God working in my life. But whatever...

I have been feeling tired, down and discouraged and at times on the verge of tears for weeks now. It's never a good sign when you're out of the entire state for a whole week, and then come back feeling the exact same as when you left. I ended up skipping house church last week because of it. I just couldn't bring myself to go, even if I was only about a mile away.

I've been praying, reading my Bible when I think of it, but just unable to shake this on my own. I didn't really want to go to the Leader's meeting on Tuesday, I've been tired, kinda sad. But I went because I have to, I'm committed, etc, etc. Karl took quite a bit of time to ask for stories about what's been happening in small groups, and there were quite a few stories of people following through on commitments they made to raise their kids right or be more bold in evangelism and even though there was a twinge of conviction (because when's the last time I shared the Gospel with someone?) it was really exciting to hear others be excited about following God. And then as I was meeting with my small group leaders, Christine was SO encouraged and had these exciting things to share that it was practically contagious, and I remember thinking "this is why I hang out with these people!" I left feeling better than I had in days, with a slightly renewed sense of purpose, or if nothing else, a feeling that I could hold on a little longer and that things will be ok.

I think I take it for granted that this is part of what the body of Christ is here for, to encourage one another and lift each other up. Even without anyone trying (I didn't share anything about how I was feeling until after everyone else had talked about their groups) I felt better just by being around people being themselves. It's crazy how simple it all is. There's no formula to it, we just get to be who we are and let God use us.